I know you want to find your purpose in life. To become that great version of yourself that you can picture in your mind. To continually improve yourself — I know you want to do all of that.
But fuck what you want.
You have an obligation to find your purpose and unleash the best within you onto the world. If you don’t figure out how to do that (and soon), your life is wasted. You are doing nothing but playing a role designed for somebody else, rather than the one designed for you…you are nothing but a filler person.
The world needs the person that you are having such difficulty letting out of his or her cage, and if you don’t become that person before you die — if you spend your whole life conforming to the voices of convention — then you are robbing the world of the light you owe it and failing in the mission of this life.
If you cannot answer the question “Why am I here?”, then you must accept the default answer of “just for the hell of it” (double meaning intended).
You have special gifts — talents and abilities that make you better and more capable than other people at certain activites. You think your gifts were just happy accidents? Hardly. You borrowed those gifts on credit; borrowed them for a specific purpose. You were going to do something with them. Something specific.
You have something specific to offer this world, in this life. There is a perfect fit for you where your spirit will shine at its brightest and all of your natural gifts will be used in full and grown exponentially.
What good is a 150-watt light bulb that will only put out 40-watts of light because it’s screwed into the wrong socket that can’t give it enough power? If you are not burning as bright as you can burn (and brighter every day), you are in the wrong place.
This obligation you have to the world is bigger than you. It’s bigger than the “nice idea” of finding your true purpose in life. You hear the voice of convention saying to you that finding your purpose is little better than a fools errand. But the voice in your heart tells you otherwise. It tells you that finding the place where your natural passions can thrive is the only errand that is worthwhile, and that abadoning convention to pursuse what you believe to be your true calling in life should be norm, not the exception. And it will be in the future.
So go for it.